I hope everyone is having a good start to their December so far! In my circle of friends, we’ve been celebrating loads of birthdays as Sagittarius’ are plenty in my life. (I'm also a Sag baby in case you're wondering.)
I’ve also been investing in plenty of “me time” as I come out of a highly depressed stage that has lasted the better part of a year. Eating healthy, exercise, and meditation has been helping me get back into a healthier mindset in addition to just talking about what's going on in my mind at the time.
The thing about sadness and feeling hopeless is that you can't move forward and you can't always see the big picture.
I eventually reached a point where I'm eager to take the next steps in my life and I don't want anything slowing me down. Failure is not an option; it's a choice. Depression is mental illness but I try to do what works for me in the moment to feel better - talk to a professional, go for walks, listen to motivational podcasts, and read inspiration books. I’ll also allow myself to take a break when I need it.
If you guys have felt like I’ve been dipping out on social media, the blog, and YouTube, it’s because I needed time to heal. There have been a lot of times when I wake up excited to conquer the day only to be swallowed up by darkness soon after. I don't know how to describe it but it's like my body and mind are suddenly completely drained of energy and all I want to do is cry. It's a horrible feeling and anyone who's ever dealt with depression knows what I'm talking about.
I'm aware that I’m being super vague and cryptic but I will be sharing more in a future blog post. In the meanwhile, just know that I'm okay. :)
I also want to say that I love what I do full heartedly and I love my audience. I’ve just needed time to maneuver the next stage in my life.
Also I want you to know that your DM’s and emails mean everything to me so if you have something to say, reach out!
To wrap up this post I just want to say that if you’re suffering from depression, seek professional help. Trust me, it alleviates some of the pressure.
If you know someone who is depressed, be patient with them. It might seem like they’re going in circles or that you can’t do anything to help but you being there means the world. If they don’t already, encourage them to talk to a professional.
Signs of Depression*
Constant sadness, almost every day. (This is what I struggle with most. Considering I’m truly such a happy person who’s truly grateful for everything in my life, it kills me when I’m sad for no apparent reason. I feel like I have no control of it which just makes it worse.)
Feeling of worthlessness, of excessive or inappropriate guilt.
Dark or suicidal thoughts. (If you catch onto this with a loved one, please take it seriously.)
Loss of interest or pleasure in favourite activities. (I used to love cooking and baking. When I’m depressed cooking has seems impossible and pointless.)
Low energy. (Not getting out of bed or off the couch)
Aches and pains. (My entire body hurts when I’m depressed.)
Insomnia or its opposite, hypersomnia.
Change in weight. (I gained weight because I wasn’t cooking and I was eating garbage food.)
Change in appetite.
Impression of restlessness.
Difficulty making decisions or focusing. (Sometimes I sit at my computer and stare at the words on my screen but my eyes are so out of focus that I can’t read a thing.)
*Symptons from depressionhurts.ca
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All opinions are my own. Photos by Geoff Martin.